My PaSSpOrT

Weeeeee!!!,…..finally I got my passport!!!,….

But it all pays off with a long day waiting at the Jabatan Imigrisen Malaysia,….anyway it is still worth waiting that long for my very first passport though the pic is so so damn ugly cause they forced me to take the latest pic of me as they kept saying my most recent pic taken beginning of this year it totally different from the way I look,…sigh!!!,…..anyway I am glad I managed to get it and ya,..Weee!!!!!,…I can’t wait for my first use in following two weeks time,..off to Taiwan for family trip lo!!!

CK ;-p

GeTTinG ReAdy!!!

Here’s what I got as preparation of getting ready for my Taiwan trip from Jyue during the meet up with her in Malacca trip,…..a scarf which just nice for the winter season in Taiwan now,…Thanks Jyue!!!,…

CK ;-p

MaLaCCa TrIp 3 & KL FoR tHe DaY

Day 3 - 30/11/09

Start off with breakfast with the famous Chicken Rice Ball in Malacca of course,….besides it is the only time we can taste it before going back to KL since Jyue’s bus back to Singapore is in the morning lo,….and so are we going our separate ways back home,.....and ya before I end simple day three story,..here’s the pics of the yummy,…

~ Chicken Rice Ball!!!

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Ya back in KL by noon,…rest for a while at home before we (Mom, Jyan & her brother, Kah Hoe) going to Wangsa Walk for a walk lol!!!,….name itself also got the ‘word’ walk dy,…hahahahahaha....though it is the biggest complex available in Wangsa Maju area but still the shops that opened in there aren’t that special,…nothing much to explore about,..i would rather go Jusco Wangsa Maju than this,..seriously,….and so then went straight to IKEA to get the my mom’s dream armchair,….but on the way on IKEA using MRR2, we drop by nearby Batu Caves to have our lunch at Pan Heong Restaurant,…WOW!!!,…FANSTACTIC!!!,….the food there is so so delicious but so so damn a lot people!!!,….my recommendation for you,..a MUST try restaurant but too bad didn’t bring camera out so didn’t manage to take pics of the food for recommendation lo!!!,…hehehehehe,…and so about for today and back home to fix the chair and get done for the day lo!!!,….till then see yea ppl!!!

CK :-p

MaLaCCa TrIp 2

Day 2 – 28/11/09

It start off with late wake up,….never thought I could have such a long and deep sleep for the night ever since my holiday started,….so before going for lunch we went around here and there dropping by from one house to another and lastly visited Jong Meng’s new house of Semi-D,…Wow!!!,…how wish I could afford one like him when I am about his age lo!!!,…hehehehehehe
Okay a trip to Malacca of course would not be complete without a tryout at its famous local food,.....the Nyonya food,…....went to Restaurant Peranakan nearby Jonker Street and ya if those gonna try it out remember to get reservation for tables cause it is really really damn a lot of people!!!,…so took some pics around the restaurant while waiting for the food to be served,….

And here are some recommendation of food,…

Ayam Ponteh & Nyonya ‘Chap Chai’

Curry Prawn & Sambal Bendi [A MUST TRY!!!]


Actually there are more,..but before I managed to take the pics, it was all eaten up by us,..hehehehehe!!!!

Oh ya went to try out the 'pork satay' after the lunch beofre going back home to rest for a while and that was before the idea of going Dreambox at Dataran Pahlawan for karaoke time came up,..so headed straight there but we just caught up in the jam, and by the time we got there it was about 6 which apparently we got an hour sing if we took evening package,.....somehow made the wrong decision and we like so regret of not choosing the later package,...but anyway it was still fun being able to sing few songs just to release my addict to karaoke,….hahahahahaha,..

And it is time for dinner with

SATAY CELUP!


SATAY CELUP!!

SATAY CELUP!!!

Aaaarggghhh going crazy over it,…ate like countless of sticks,….erm I wonder how much weight I had gain by then,….hahahahahahha

You won’t believe after the superb FILLING meal,..we still head to a music style coffee shop to chill out,…as supper I guess,…hahahahahah ya cause the coffee that we ordered comes with one slice of cheese cake,….hhhmmmm,….YUMMY!!!,….gosh those cheese cakes are unbelievable tasty not forgetting with these following,…

Impressive hot chocolate topping deco,…

And another yummy drinks,..Citrus Crush!!!


Even my nephew can shallow a cup of drink and ice-cream after the heavy dinner,..gosh IMPRESSIVE!!!

Well that’s about day 2 in Malacca,….aarrggghh,…tomorrow is time to back KL,..but I aint having enough fun here,…more place to explore though I been exploring quite often here,…hahahahahaha,..till then,…

CK ;-p

MaLaCCa TrIp

Day 1 – 27/11/09

Okay it is just a weekend trip of my family and I at Malacca, started off the journey at late noon, so once reached there have a break a nearest mcd available while waiting my cousin bro, Jong Meng to lead us the way back to his home at Batu Berendam,….so were we back to his home to chill out and play around with his son, Wei,..so cute and fun to be around with oh!!! ^.^,….and he is the 'model of the trip' from that moments onwards lol!!!,..here some of his pics!!!,…

~ and is family pics time!!!

And when it’s about time for dinner, we then went to a Hakka specialty restaurant to enjoy for the night together with a walk at the Jonker Street,…walking this street at night gives me a different feel together with lots of small food stalls to taste all around,….we just can’t stop eating along the street, trying each and every special food stalls available.....Wee!!!...well that’s about for the day, and till next day with more activities for the day oh!!!,….

~ a glimpse of Jonket Street at night

CK ;-p

NeWaY MoMeNts

Okay it is not the first time since I insomnia,…and it happened again today,…been watching movie and surfing all night long till in the morning got a called,…was so shocked by the call cos normally no people will call me that early in the morning,…and ya the caller was Bernard, asking me out to join him, Kristine and Jacqueline singing at Neway,…..without hesitating I went along which makes me waited for half an hour due to the jam,….fine fine it is all worth waiting since I gonna get a free treat from Bernard,…WEE!!!!,…thanks Bernard for the treat,…..oh ya Jacqueline been camwhoring in Neway which apparently the newly add photo album in facebook is all her in, i.e 18 out of 22 pics,…SWT!!!...here really some moments of us in Neway btw,…..

~ the new version of threesome 'traffic light'


~ Bernard, my sifu and me!!!


~ the threesome of old version 'traffic light'


~ and this, it's a combo LOL!!!


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and ya almost totally forgotten than I had sort of appointment with pris cos she gonna come to my house with leann just to see my dog, jack,..come visit my house not to see the people but dog,..sigh!!!,…what I didn’t expect was malini and zarif came along too,…they were hanging at IKANO before meet me up in TTDI neighbourhood area just opposite 1U,…..and so do we off to my house area, wangsa maju and we had our hi-tea at some ‘oldtown style café’ with lots of weirdo drinks name,….anyhow it is still newly open so not gonna intro much about this café till I really tried out their food for real,….hahahahaha and ya they got in my house full of surprise of how cute jack is with the new grooming and how superb skinny he is too,….hahahahhahaaha,….not forgetting the ‘rombak’ my living room for a moment,..thank god my room is upstairs or else guess there goes my room!!!,….till then,….


CK ;-p

Somewhere I Belong

Inspired by the movie, Raise Your Voice acted by Hilary Duff I watched just now so, I feel like writing this down before this inspiration is gone from my head. Another movie that is really meaningful, telling the world, the people that we should not gave up chasing our dreams. To believe that we can achieve the dreams we once made of and work towards it with strong determination. If I had not watched this movie, I guess I would have forgotten what my dreams are made of. I once wrote "Think BIG, Dream BIG, Achieved BIG” to inspire myself of having the passion about dreams in my life and believing that I could achieved what my dreams are made of,…and yet I could just let this fade away as time passes by though it is within the same year, it was the beginning of the year when I wrote about that post.

Not only dreams I had forgotten and put aside, I just realised from the movie that I even had forgotten who I really am. Not that I don’t even know my name or identity, it is just that I just realised I’m losing who I was before I entered uni and after I entered uni. Especially recent two months time, I just completely lost myself as who I was, I was living behind someone’s shadow once again for the past two months. The feeling of sense of belongings just isn’t it me at all for that particular moment. My friend, Ida is right, I didn’t realised my blog is all about ‘you’ instead about myself, CK where apparently this blog supposed to be something personal about me and my life. I completely wash out and keep blogging my about my feelings to ‘you’ but no point when ‘you’ are not reading at all.

I just realised for the past two months my world is about ‘you’ where my life is completely influence by ‘you’ deeply especially emotionally. My emotional can be so badly especially when I was thinking about ‘you’ till I lost my appetite, I am having insomnia, sleepless nights all the time or even break down when I was studying for exam. I just can’t afford to hold on this anymore for so many other semesters coming. It is really really killing!!!

No doubt there are times when I found myself in you, I gained my energy and motivational from you but is that who I truly found myself???

I never knew finding and knowing my true self could be such difficult. In my life I thought I knew who I was, who I am, what I truly want until this moment. I am so lost and I wish I could found myself back and stay away from all these unwanted hard moment of my life again. Every time, I thought I could do so, things just can’t stop happening and get in the way and it will just pull me back to square one. I just wish if there is someone by my side helping me when I am facing all these difficulties of my life, but there is no one out there for help.

Sometimes out of difficulties I found miracle. Somehow there is a ‘ray of light’ shining through my way, my destiny and things just get better. It is this ‘light’ that makes me won’t give up, won’t break down and stay strong even it goes wrong. Guess it is the ‘light of hope’, hope from my family to me to be a person they are proud of someday. But can I really do so?? Will I disappoint them someday and be someone they really can’t accept for who I am and what I am doing???,…..

Many had taught and I have learned this countless times, “it doesn’t matter what people say, it doesn’t matter how long it takes, and all you gotta do is to believe in yourself.” And that’s what makes me keep moving on till today. It is this believes in own self that’s makes a different in everyone including me and to have faith in everything you do. But it only matters if you be true to yourself and follow your heart. But how many people will be able to do that???
Well because of this inspiration, I hope from this moment on, I will be able to find myself, who I really am, where do I really belong to, and where do I really fit in,…all these questions in my mind will soon be answered, I hope. Lastly, let’s have a moment with the song by Hilary Duff – Someone’s Watching Over Me, a song from the movie. Till then,…

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Someone’s Watching Over Me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me


~CK~

jAcK Is BaCk

Ya I didn’t tell you that Jack had been gone for days since the day I back home lei,….he ran out when my mom open the gate and just can’t find a way to lure him back to house,..so I gave up thinking he will be back in hours later but his shadow doesn’t even show,…so he is now a strained dog by the road side not knowing what gonna happen to him and when he went,….after one day on Thursday missing,…he finally back on friday morning,…back with a ‘tempang’ leg,….didn’t managed to bring him see vet so thought gonna bring him today,…but he just looks fine with his leg today,…so just sent him for grooming which cost me 70 bucks wei,….gosh being a dog isn’t that bad after all sometimes with such luxurious grooming,..more expensive than my hair make over lei!!!,…well presenting to you his new look,..perhaps it is his twin brother instead cos I, myself also barely recognise him!!!,…..hahahahaahaha

~ poor jack been starve for days,...


~ he just like doing this when he see his meal!!!


~ i have no idea how he get in,..guess he is too skinny, that's the reason lo!!!

CK ;-p

OuT FoR EaTiNg DaY

Ya today pretty much about an eating day,…woke up in the afternoon and got called from peiyue asking me if I following her to choose the slice of cake she promised or she buy it back for me,…since I had not eaten my lunch,..so I followed her,..went to buy mc’d for lunch and then to Secrect Recipe,..since there is this tea-promotion we dine in for the slice of cake with the free white coffee,….wow what an enjoying day with heavy lunch and tea at the same time,…..

Thanks Peiyue for the slice of cake,…enjoy it and really appreciate it,…and at least I eaten cake for my b’day time,…..hehehehehehe

And as for dinner,….my bro, peiyue and I went to Fullhouse near Kelana Jaya area,…the design of the café house was really cool and fanstactic,…a cool place to chill and hang out with friends,..not forgetting of its delicious food,….got myself with,.....

oven roasted chicken,.....


and honeydew drinks,……….hhhmmmmmm yummy!!!,..


and ya this is what peiyue was eating,…it was tasty too!!!


…….blurppppp!!!,..gosh must be all the food that stuffs in today,..hahahahahaha,..till then see yea!!!


CK ;-p

BaCk HoMe FoR ReaL

Ya really feels so good to be really back home FOR REAL,…this time I am back for more than a month plus for holiday,…Wee!!!!!!!,…..Been flow and back for the whole semester either over the weekend or during one or two weeks off for mid-sem break,…but this time really off for holidays after completing the whole semester 1 this year,….the homesickness, the hard moment in uni with lots of happening, all can be abandoned and really free from everything!!!,…..and ya gonna have a long rest for a week before I am off from the house for outings and trips lo,….^.^


CK ;-p

Was It Special?

Well been many years my b’day fall on exam period and so do this year where it is the last day of my exam in uni,….and guess what, it was a morning paper and I woke up way late and by the time I got into the exam hall, I left 2 hours of time with 3 hours period of exam,…hahahaahahah 1/3 of the exam time gone,..but anyhow if I had gone early also,..i guess I will be sitting in the exam hall for an hour thinking of the solutions and which questions to do lo,…finish paper by noon and get back to prepare before off to go out,...out to Kuantan with my coursemates,..the A4 group, me, shang qian, Nicholas and phooi keat,..and ya another civil environmental coursemates, chee suan,…...we got at EC Mall quite late,..it was dy late lunch,…and ya went in Black Canyon for lunch,…yup get treat from my dear fellow friends as part of the celebration and so do the movie (2012),…basically I didn’t spent anything at all for this outing,….

THANKS A LOT for the treat, guys!!!

And so are we finished by night and gotta rush back to ump since phooi keat gotta take his night bus back to penang,…dropped shang qian back to his home first then here goes my reckless driving from kuantan to gambang,…it was a crazy ride and quickly drop him at the ump bus stop,..thank god the bus willing to wait for few minutes lo,…and yup me, Nicholas and chee suan went to pack our late dinner from gambang before we are all back to ump,….
Well that’s my day of celebration with lots of happening too,….Was it special??? I have no idea but one special thing for sure,..i gotta to know from my mom before I am back that my bro gonna give me his pair of superb EXPENSIVE shoe as my b’day gift,..guess it is the most EXPENSIVE and memorable present I ever get from him,…Thanks Bro!!!

here's the precious pair of b'day shoe i got!!!

CK ;-p

说好话， 做好事， 存好心

说好话, 做好事, 存好心 (speak good, do good and spread kindness),…that’s the inspirational I got from the recent series 宫心计(Beyond The Realm Of Conscience) and been using as my personal message and status in both msn and facebook oh,….well the main character in the series, 三好, she indeed can keep up with these three simple things in her life just like her name, although she live in a life full of ‘battles of surviving’ in the Forbidden City,…it is already hard to find ways of living and surviving in such a tragic Forbidden City and yet she managed to keep up with her believe and principal of life,….to speak good, do good and spread kindness,…it is because of olden days where people are less ‘polluted’ or people in modern days just forget about all these basics of life. I once also keep up this principal in life, believing that if we treat other people good and with lots of good deeds, we will have good in return,….but I just can’t seem to be holding up to it at all time with all the deception, lies, politics of life, double faces and many more I had faced recent years, I just don’t seem to believe this anymore. Even up to now if it is because of this series, I guess I would have forgotten about this principal of my life before,….i am trying to hold up to these now days but yet sometimes it doesn’t come out the way I was doing before,…guess people changed, so do I,…that’s the world had become now,…it would be great if everyone in this world could do a little of these principal of life just like 三好 for a better place and world!!!

CK ;-p

~ DiStAnCe BeTwEeN Us ~

Got this message from a friend just now,...really have the rush of sending this to you, but i just can't,...so i posted this for you!!!

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 生与死
而是 我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离
不是
我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
而是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起
而是 明明无法抵挡这股想念 却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离
不是
明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是有用自己冷漠的心对爱人的人 掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

CK <3

aNoThEr pIeCe 4 U!!!

Actually wrote this quite sometime during the last class of TITAS, somehow stumble across it again when I was studying TITAS for tomorrow’s exam just now!!!

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As I watched you passing by,
My heartbeat stop,
I am breathless in front of you,
I am speechless in front of you.

Lots of words in my mind,
But none of then I could delivered to you,
Lots of things wandering in my mind,
But none of them would be happen.

I wish I could forget you,
To ease away my pain,
To ease away my suffering,
But if I could just do so

Every seconds thinking of you,
Makes me miss you even more
Every seconds not seeing you,
Makes my life even more miserable

It’s loneliness I felt without you,
It’s emptiness I felt without you,
However,
Your presence fills my emptiness,
Your presence fills my heart with warmness
Your presence gives me happiness

It’s you that affects me the most,
It’s you that affects my life the most,
But it’s you I truly found my most in both worlds
Because,..
Your happiness is my happiness,
Your sadness is also my sadness

It’s everything about you,
But,….
If I could just let you go,
And let you fade away,…..
~ck~

If I LeT U Go!!!

It’s funny, after so many times flow and back from or to ump, this is the first time I didn’t feel blue of coming back to ump,…ermm, maybe because I am just back for exam days and no more classes for weeks coming, that is why I felt relieve and free than before,….or maybe I was kinda busy the moment I stepped into ump, first I gotta attend a CNY committee meeting which apparently didn’t make it on time,..by the time I reached ump, the meeting was over,…and with some other stuffs I need to settle going from one house to another house finding my friends with stuffs, I barely have time to think about you,….

Is not that you aren’t important to me in my heart, but if I don’t keep myself busy doing a lot things I will be thinking of you all the time,…

thinking what you are doing, thinking how is everything going on with you,…just keep thinking,….it’s really suffering keep thinking about these,…

What’s even more funny, I thought coming back here would make me breathless and suffer even more, but somehow I feel so peaceful in both my heart and mind,…even my appetite is back too,..because of you, I lost my appetite but because of you, I gained my appetite back,...

I told a close friend of my, fyee that I am starting to ‘let go’,..indeed I am trying hard,…it’s just a beginning but I dunno if I can really do it,…. GREENERY>>>a fresh start, i hope,....!!!,…that’s what I been hoping for, a fresh start for myself and my feelings towards you,...maybe I treat you like a normal friend perhaps a close/special friend in my heart is easier for me though I am doing so all this while,…so guess this will makes me feel better rather than telling you the truth about my feelings to you that might ruin our friendship,..i dunno if I can stand on of losing another such valuable friendship to me,….

People might wonder what kind of guy of me, not even dare to confess my feelings to you,…what guts do I have when I have feelings to you but don’t even confess,…well the thing is, I guess I really not ready to get into a r’ship. I stumble across darren’s personal message which is really meaningful,….

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

It’s true, if I not truly deeply understand myself, how I can understand you even more!!! I might know you well personality wise and maybe a bit of your inner self but, before knowing or understand you really deeply, guess I really need to know and understand myself well,..the long searching answer that still in a big ??? in my mind,…


missing you as always!!!,
CK

LoSt!!!

Study week of me in KL coming to an end, tomorrow I am going back to ump, a day earlier before the first paper in preparation physically, mentally and emotionally. 5 days had passed easily just like that once again without realizing.

I thought I will be able to clear off my mind not to think about you, I thought I will be more relax and a space for myself to breathe here but it seems like effortless of me trying so hard to ease things away about you. I kept telling myself to focus, stop thinking about nonsense and about you but what’s the point when I am missing you even more each and every day when I am here. But what’s the point if I able to see you there although I dare not even confess my feelings to you. Every time when I see you, my mouth just couldn’t mumble a single word about my feelings to you. I just got paralyzed by you,….the cheerful and a smile on my face you see always, is just a way of me hiding all these from you. I guess the best time being around with you would be walking under rain. I got this inspiration from a personal message from someone, ‘I love walking under the rain as you would not able to differentiate my tears or rain that drop on my face’,….

Gosh I am gonna go crazy if this situation just keep dragging like this,…..such situation is like me in the deep sea of ocean alone. Not knowing what to do next. Swim or Sink?,….sometimes there is moment I try hard to swim back to the shore because of you, but sometimes I just wish to sink deep into the peaceful blue sea, just like in my facebook's status mind,...really feeling like giving up everything,...in hoping to give myself a peace of mind to forget about you. Perhaps I should really start thinking of letting go that would make my life easier but if I could just do so, easily!!!


CK ;-p

Waiting,….

Waiting,….
If I could just keep on waiting,
Waiting for your call,
Waiting for your text messages,
Waiting if you would online,
Waiting for your reply,
Waiting for your presence every day,
Waiting for your smile to brightens my day,

The feeling of waiting is torturing,
The feeling of waiting is driving me crazy,
I wonder if all these waiting, is worth waiting???
But not matter what, no matter how,
I will be waiting at all time!!!

CK ~.~