Saturday, December 14, 2013

Are we too busy for a friend?

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
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That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.
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Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'

Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'

'I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued:I think we all saved our lists'

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

And One Way to Accomplish This Is: Forward this article message on. If you do not send it, you will have, once again passed up the wonderful opportunity to do something nice and beautiful.

If you've received this article message, it is because someone cares for you, and it means there is probably at least someone for whom you care.

If you're 'too busy' to take those few minutes right now to forward this article message on, would this be the VERY first time you didn't do that little thing that would make a difference in your relationships?

The more people that you send this to, the better you'll be at reaching out to those you care about.

Remember, you reap what you sow. What you put into the lives of others comes back into your own.

~May Your Day Be Blessed As Special As You Are~
Your FRIENDSHIP, is very precious to me!

Sunday, November 03, 2013

sUppOrT, Is aLL I NeeD!!!~~~

The week I started to struggle and lost in my work life, it is the week I consistently had support from all my loved ones. Support from my family, friends and coursemates. They are the one lifted me up when I was down.

It is just a simple word of encouragement and support>>> Jiayou!!!~~~,…that keeps me moving forward and overcome my fear, obstacles and challenges.

And thanks to this motivation phrase,..
 
It makes me not to give up easily when face challenges and remind myself why I started everything in the beginning at Singapore here. Is time for me to stand up strong and outshine who I was and who I am gonna be!!! ^.^V

I would to express my gratitude to all whom had supported me during this period. Your support is much appreciated!!!


With Love,
CK ^.^

Thursday, October 24, 2013

LoSt MoMeNtS @,@!!!

I am lost again!!! @,@!!!

I am in a very lost moment ever since last 2 weeks, 10th October. A date that marked 12 years since my dad had gone. Every year when this date approaching, I am totally lost and not knowing if what I had decided is right or wrong. What I had decided is really what I want. I wonder if I still had trauma over his leaving that make me to be more strong and independent rather be someone so dependent on others.

For past 2 weeks, I had been going through mental struggle of to leave or stay the challenge to my current condition. I had numerous breakdowns or even in depression mood during the night before sleep. I kept to myself, knowing my family and siblings will not understand what I really going through and why I feel to quit my current work.


Although I knew eventually I might able to go through such obstacle and challenge, but deep down in my heart, I knew that instinct of telling me to go for what I interest and passion in rather than forcing myself in a condition or environment which is I am so uncomfortable in. I somehow knew God and my dad trying to send message to me to overcome it and be stronger. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” right?

Still I will not give up trying what I want to venture in rather than sitting not doing anything to change my life I want it to be. I believe with determination and faith in my hand, I can shape my own life and story instead of others telling me what to do and to become!!! May luck be by my side and blessed be by God and dad,…


CK  @,@!!!

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

JoB SaTisFaCtIoN

 


Without realising 1 month had passed. Was satisfied with the job, but yet to discover more by,.. <identify my talent> <positive attitude> <passion in work> <a sense of purpose> <the right job of role> <self awareness & motivation>,..to keep going in my work!!! ~~~ ^.^


CK ^.^

Friday, August 09, 2013

cOuNtInG DoWn ThE dAyS (StArT oF S'PoRe LiFe)

 

Counting down the days>>>9 days to go & I'm leaving home again,...Gonna be homesick again~~~


CK

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

DoNe & DuSteD!!!

 


4 Years of hard work in my uni life, didn't expect to have that much of notes and books after completed my degree. Marked the end of my study life, and the beginning of my working life. Gear up for job hunting~~~!!!


CK

Wednesday, June 05, 2013

VIVA was over!!!

Finally had completed my VIVA (FYP Presentation) on Monday!!!
 
<A presentation that I long waited, eager and looking forward.>
 
I supposed to feel relief and relax after such critical presentation of mine in this final semester. But I kinda felt a bit down and disappointed. Guess luck was not by my side, so I feel not satisfied with my presentation performance. First, thanks to “magic” from coordinator that I need to present on first day (Monday) morning session. Secondly, on the day itself, my laptop was unable to connect to the projector, so I can’t use the new presentation software to present.  Then, with Monday Blue in the morning, the lecturers mood doesn’t seem so good with one panel is pregnant lecture. So here goes the “shooting” moment to the first 3 presenters from both lecturers whereas, me and my PSM-mate got slight “shooting” from the pregnant lecturer only after them. That moment I finished presenting, I felt like crap and break down although I did a video in the presentation doesn’t seem to be useful enough to handle the panel (pregnant lecture).
 
It took me 2 days to recover from the break down, but now I am ready for new challenge. I am ready to prepare myself for one final battle in my university life (My LAST FINAL Exam)!!!
 
FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS!!!
 
As saying,…..


P.S:

Anyhow, I would still express my greatest gratitude to my supervisor, Madam Wafty for her unconditional guidance and support throughout this 1 year of FYP period. Your kind attention is much appreciated also!!!


CK (志堅)

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

~Touching story of a married couple~

A story of a husband sending off his pregnant wife to take bus back to her hometown


"Once on boarding time, the wife got into the bus, sitting near by the window seat. Her tears started to drop from her eyes when she saw her husband waiting patiently for the bus departure, to ensure she is safely depart in his own eyes. Her tears dropped even more when she could not do anything but sitting in the bus waiting for the bus to depart. Looking through the window, seeing her husband standing by the bus stop but couldn't talk to him, hurts even more. It is the feeling of so close yet so far. They can see each other but could not talk to each other. All they can is sign language that they both understand in each other, separated by a sheet of window glass in between until one moment, the husband texted her (comforting text I think). Once she received the text, the smile in her face clearly took over her tears drop earlier. The wife then insisted her husband to leave the place and do not  need to wait until the bus departs since it is quite insecure for him to wait around the bus stop area with many snatch thief cases happened in the past at the area. The husband on the other hand also insisted but to stay and wait as he can't leave her alone in the bus before the departure. All he did is move away from her eye sight but still waits there. And just few minutes later, finally the bus departs. When the bus start moving the wife could still see her husband still waiting there. She was even more touch, she stares into her husband eyes as the bus moves. Although it was short stares in the eyes between them two, but it is the meaning in it. The stares of a wife telling her husband how much she will miss him and she will be waiting for him in hometown which is the period near her pregnancy due period to see him again....."
 

P.S: This is real life story of a married couple as foreseen when I was waiting at bus stop for bus back to university.  

by;
CK

 

Thursday, April 04, 2013

~Thought of Doubts!!!~

I didn’t expect I would be writing this post a thought in my mind that been struggling and conflicting for the past few months. Ever since I was young, I was bliss to have grandma, aunt and my cousins to pamper me since I am the youngest among the cousin siblings. At the age 7, my whole life entirely changed. I never knew that the decision of my dad to move me back to KL had changed my life completely. Without his decision, I wouldn’t be in the government primary school studying Malay language as primary language for all the subjects instead of in the Chinese primary school. With my dad leaving before he could even see my achievement in UPSR result, it is another turning point in my life. I made up my decision to enter English cluster school that shape my life and defined me of who I am now. I never knew entering such top school with my second achievement in my PMR result can impact me so much!!!! The leadership and social skills gained from this school that leads to me now, to where I am now. Without all these achievements or experiences, I wouldn’t come this far until tertiary education, my current university and course I am studying now.  I was, I am still doing well in my study and skills achievement that I need as graduate engineer for the working world.

But at some point, I still doubt myself. Not only the doubt in me, but doubt of where I am now that would make my parents proud of.  Knowing my dad who lack of education since young, he would definitely be proud of my education level now. But to my mom, I am currently feeling lost. One moment I am feeling the love from her taking good care of me. But another moment, I feel so insecure with the lack of support or the support that never been expressed out by her makes me feel if I am doing it the right way. It seems like everything I did or said to her is meaningless and nothing special to her. The hard work I been doing for my study, my family, my home and my life seem useless to her eyes.  Sometimes, like I feel she never seems to appreciate all my hard work. My brother on the hand, never seem to put much effort to the family in the early years make me envy and jealous of his life and mom’s treatment to him. Mom always been treating brother like a prince of the house, fulfilling every request from him since young, and never been nagging him for not helping out in the family. It is a total opposite treatment to me. Why my mom needs to be so hard to me? Why she can be so unfair? Why I am always the one need to help out with chores and obeys everything said in the family? With much freedom given fairly to both of us, I still not feeling the freedom with the limitation given by mom compares to my brother. It is like he just can be and do anything, limitless freedom, but to me, I still have limitation in being or doing what I want. Even when we were infants in her womb, there is a huge difference in us. My brother been getting the good nutrients whereas I am only getting daily nasi lemak for nutrient. How can there is such a difference in us? We both are her children, but the treatment, the sickness (cataract and skin sensitive since young, glaucoma in recent years) where my brother is completely flawless and healthy and evens the look is so different!!! My brother and I are completely of two different looks. If we walk out to the public, any strangers could not even recognize us as brothers. With all these, I have this silly thought of me, and my brother is not biological related or even worst, I am thinking I might be adopted son. I don’t know why; I would have such thought. But it is really these doubts in me that bugged my mind over recent months.  I wonder when these thought of doubts in me will be clear!? I just hope what I think in my mind would not be a reality and if it is true, I wonder how myself would be handle it!? ~LOST!!!~



CK @,@!!!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Quote for life~~~


"Someone once said that we shouldn’t cry because something is over but we should be glad that it happened."
CK ^.^

Thursday, February 14, 2013

FiReWoRkS!!!

 


Twinkle twinkle fireworks!!!


Bursting fireworks!!!


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Youth To Business

"Today was such a great experience and eye opening as I participated Youth to Business organized by AIESEC."

That was my posting in Facebook status.
Trying to recall about the event, but the only memory I able to trace back was I took public transport (LRT) to Kelana Jaya station and took shuttle to Taylor's Uni from there. And the entry fee was RM30 as per information below.

The information about the forum is from the following link that posted a YouTube video what Youth To Business (Y2B) about.

Malaysia Youth to Business Forum


Explore and discuss Entrepreneurship, Innovation and Corporate Social Responsibility with top corporations from around Malaysia.

7 Corporations. 3 topics. 1 platform to bring it all together.

Themed “How to build Malaysia’s youth to be a future competitive business leader globally”, the forum is divided into three main tracks namely Entrepreneurship, Innovation and Corporate Social Responsibility led by the representatives of the six organisations. They will discuss how youth can contribute in these three key areas and provide insights to the corporate world via keynote speeches, interactive workshops, active discussions and case studies.

Last year, the Y2B forum, which was led by Nippon Paint, Naga DDB, Accenture and ING, attracted over 600 students from all around Malaysia. This year, AIESEC Malaysia aims to increase the number to 1,000 participants. The corporations present for 2013 is MSC, Accenture, P&G, Microsoft, Ernst & Young, Danone, and Standard Chartered Bank.

Malaysian Youth to Business Forum is part of the international Y2B Forum held by AIESEC globally.
Entry fee is only priced at RM30 per person.
Date: 29th January 2013
Time: 9am-6pm


Malaysian Youth to Business Forum 2013 Agenda









 





And also, the memory of there is a group discussion during one of the sessions by MSC where I got to know a lot of amazing young talents/new friends from different major study background. Meet an old school friend from SJI too. And not forgetting two new friends from same major study background (civil engineering). ^.^



presentation on SSO during MSC session














Nice seeing you again Suang Fu Lim

Hello to Civil new friends too, Joshua Wong & Kenny Chia


CK ^.^

TayLoR's UnI LibRaRy

This is how Taylor's Uni library looks like,...

Friday, January 18, 2013

MeeT Ups & DePaRts

Officially today the last musketeer is back to her home!!! All my beloved FIST friends are back home for real!!! Real as in, they would have not return again to university for coming semester. The feeling if being left out alone in coming semester without them makes me vulnerable and insecure. I am glad to know such fantastic and amazing friends of them!!!

The first two should be my "dai po" and "lo po zai". I just wondered how these "relation" came up to. But I am happy and lucky to know them. Always caught up in between them with the "jealousy" fight, was kinda fun, haha but other friends who hear and seen it, can't take it anymore with such "scene".

"Dai po" being the "good wife", cooking and preparing all the nice food for me when I was hungry. Sharing lots of things but also argue a lot of things in between. Still, we will always have unlimited chat with her no matter how. =p

"Lo po zai" on the other hand is very caring, cheerful and supportive one. Without her in this semester, I wonder how I would survive the friendship obstacle in the room. She always made my day with something, either with ice-cream treat or with the "nice compliment" (which continue by so teasing at the end of the sentence). =)

 Source: HEARTdiSc of KEE

Lastly, I wish them would find their happiness and a person who truly care and love them as they long searched for.
 
 
Then, it was my roommate (1 & half year). I think he is one of a kind person. Why I say so??? Well last time not knowing him, I thought he is just ordinary person. But knowing longer and with his growth, I saw special in him. His thoughts and goals somehow inspired me. To be honest, sometimes I, myself beh tahan his cuteness (sort of natural cuteness in him),..hahaha,...but all in all it is easy around with people like him,...I think this pic is the most handsome him!!! ^.^v
 
These 2 girls, to me always come in pairs. Although not all the time, but it is when every time I meet them. Cause' I got to know and meet them at the same time. They both also gave me laughter, support and unconditionally teasing when complimenting as well. Haha. Time too short for me to get to know them more and better. Wish we will have chance to meet up often during holiday before graduate.


If compare the 2 girls above, I think I would need to spend even more time to get to know more and better about her. She is really not as "cold" as first impression. In fact, as she said, she is melted ice-mountain. Kinda wasted didn't get to know such cool person earlier of the university life. Well guess first step I should take, going Ipoh find her and Mr.Wong for Ipoh tour to know more about her, her hometown and her background. Bet interesting stories will come out!!!

Finally, here,...is one of the musketeer girl who just went back home. ET her nickname. To me she ain't ET at all!!! Guess you just gotta know her more. Simple yet hardworking person. Impressed with her determination at times. But yea indeed I kinda scare off with her "shooting skill" at times. Thank God, she "spare" me away,..hehehe. Guess the statement will not come back to univeristy again will not be applicable to her. She will continue master's degree in UMP.

So, wish her success towards the PhD road path!!! V^.^V

Yea, yea I will resharpen my camwhoring skill again yea!!! ^.^V

Last, not forgetting JJ my beloved roommate who supported and helped me so much this semester. And also, others FIST friends (Pei Yee, Han Wau, Yew Chong, Yuki Teo & Sing Ying). Thanks to be part of my life!!! Wish you all the best and good luck in your future life!!! Cheers!!! ^.^


CK ^.^

Monday, January 14, 2013

mIx fRuItS sNoW sAgO

hAppY bIrThDaY dAd!!!

Without realising, it was my dad's birthday today. I hardly celebrate his b'day when he was around. Only way I expressed my gratitude was giving present to him. Now I don't even have the chance to give present to him anymore. Well anyhow,..

Happy Birthday Daddy!!!

Thanks a lot for what you had given and left for me. I am glad you seeded my root strong in hometown and grow harder in KL as my real land. I got my root and I was, I am growing my branches now. Soon I will have my leaves and flower blossom. Till the day I make you proud of who I am, Dad,...

Here's a song I always remind myself of your teaching and guidance in my life before you left,...



So many things
To do and say
But I can't seem
To find my way
But I wanna know how
I know
I'm meant
For something else
But first
I gotta find myself
But I don't know how

Oh, why do
I reach for the stars
When I don't have wings
To carry me that far?

I gotta have
Roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know
Who I wanna be
And faith
To take chances
To live like I see
A place in this world
For me

Sometimes
I don't wanna feel

And forget the pain
Is real

Put my head
In the clouds

Oh, start to run
And then I fall

Thinkin'
I can't get it all
Without my feet
On the ground

There's always a seed
Before there's a rose
The more that it rains
The more I will grow

I gotta have
Roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know
Who I wanna be
And faith
To take chances
To live like I see
A place in this world
For me

Whatever comes
I know how to take it
Learn to be strong
I won't have to fake it
Oh, you're understandin'
The wind can come
And do its best
Blow me north, and south,
East and west
But I'll still
Be standing
I'll be standing

If I have
Roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know
Who I'm gonna be
And faith
To take chances
To live like I see
A place in this world

I gotta have
Roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know
Who I wanna be
And faith

To take chances
And live like I see
A place in this world

For me

 
CK 


Saturday, January 12, 2013

I've DecIdEd!!!

Lately, I come across with mixed feeling again. A feeling that I should not emerges out. A feeling that I long forgotten how warm this could feel. But it’s this feeling that had long gone keeps my heart “frozen” for these 2 years.

I keep asking myself if I should have made the step forward. My brain asks me to, but my heart asks me not. I just can’t do it. Making such step need courage and that courage in me was long gone.

Recent I just wrote “In our life we need to have Hope, Faith & Believe. That's how Love exist & create Peace to our life and people around us!!!”

But I have decided, it is best things remain that way. This is for the good of both of us. Till I find my courage to love again, now I can only love my mom and my families unconditionally. However, you will always have an equal important spot like my surrounding close friends. If you need help and support, I will always be there and care for you.


CK

Sunday, January 06, 2013

Get It Right!!!



What have I done?

I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders
 
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?
 
Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can’t go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I’ll get through this
 
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?
 
So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!
Yeah, I’ll send out a wish, yeah, I’ll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care
 
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take, to get it right?
To get it right?
 

This song really describe me from in and all out;

Seriously, what have I done? I always doubt myself with such question. My intention on doing anything was purely trying to help, but why in seem ended up hurting everyone else around me?
Am I too stubborn in making decision and action!?

With every action I had taken, I felt thousand tonne of weight is on my shoulders. Just like I am “Angel” and I ain’t supposed to make any mistake or wrong decision. It’s like everything I had done just ain’t good enough for people around me. Whatever situation I’m involved in, things just became worst. As if I am a creature with the ability of “touch of destruction”. With everything I touched, it tumbles down and destructed. That feeling was the worst feeling of all!!!
Sometimes the more I tried to fix, the worst it became.
How many times will it takes? How many times will it take for me to get things right??
Once?
Twice?
Thrice?
Or never?

Why? Why? Why?
Why can’t life be easy on me!?

Let me do what I want and I’m comfortable with. Stop judging me with my actions taken. Although now I would have not care other peoples’ judgment, but still,..I was once that person, a person who so afraid of other peoples’ judgment to the level I felt suffocated.

All I wish is someone out there whom I had helped with good intention and sincere heart will be able to see how much I care for you all,..
 
CK