Get It Right!!!

What have I done?

I wish I could run,

Away from this ship going under

Just trying to help

Hurt everyone else

Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

 

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down?

Cause my best intentions

Keep making a mess of things,

I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?

Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

 

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?

Cause I can’t go back and undo this

I just have to stay and face my mistakes,

But if I get stronger and wiser, I’ll get through this

 

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?

And all that you touch tumbles down?

Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,

I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?

Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

 

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air,

And accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!

Yeah, I’ll send out a wish, yeah, I’ll send up a prayer

And finally someone will see how much I care

 

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?

And all that you touch tumbles down?

Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,

I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?

Oh, how many times will it take, to get it right?

To get it right?

 

This song really describe me from in and all out;

Seriously, what have I done? I always doubt myself with such question. My intention on doing anything was purely trying to help, but why in seem ended up hurting everyone else around me?

Am I too stubborn in making decision and action!?

With every action I had taken, I felt thousand tonne of weight is on my shoulders. Just like I am “Angel” and I ain’t supposed to make any mistake or wrong decision. It’s like everything I had done just ain’t good enough for people around me. Whatever situation I’m involved in, things just became worst. As if I am a creature with the ability of “touch of destruction”. With everything I touched, it tumbles down and destructed. That feeling was the worst feeling of all!!!

Sometimes the more I tried to fix, the worst it became.

How many times will it takes? How many times will it take for me to get things right??

Once?
Twice?
Thrice?
Or never?

Why? Why? Why?

Why can’t life be easy on me!?

Let me do what I want and I’m comfortable with. Stop judging me with my actions taken. Although now I would have not care other peoples’ judgment, but still,..I was once that person, a person who so afraid of other peoples’ judgment to the level I felt suffocated.

All I wish is someone out there whom I had helped with good intention and sincere heart will be able to see how much I care for you all,..

 

CK