人生有几个十年了？

Without realising ten years had passed. Just with a blink of an eye, my dad had left the family for ten years, my life without him for a decade!!! Can’t even recall when the year was that I stop relying on him and his caring, that trains me up to be such an independent person. But I am blessed that I got blessing from him. Blessing that ensures I can move on in my life every time I faced difficulties “Out of difficulties, makes miracles.” Sometimes to change the impossible to possible, it is not that difficult at all. All you need is faith, effort and the trust in the final result. Yes, indeed there is some part of me hating him because leaving the family, but I guess the amount of hatred I had to him is the amount I love him. I love him for the way he raised me, brought me up when I was down and even showing indirect guidance to me that is useful in anytime. I was once being rebellious and now I am turning into another person. I ain't so sure if my changing is good or the either way round. But at least I felt positive in my changing. My family and siblings might say I am changing to a cold-blooded person, you can say whatever about me, I don’t really care anymore!!! The present me is, I don’t want to live a life based on judgement of others. I live my life for myself, not for others. Sorry dad once again I might turn up to be a person you might want me to be. In my thinking now, I am getting older as an adult; I need to train myself up to be a better man, a more responsible to my work and action. So, you can’t blame me for being of care less person as I want to live in a life with my own definition of happiness. That is my most comfortable way of living and being the real me. I ain’t so sure how I am going to survive in the “real world”, but I am sure with the knowledge, skills and capability I am achieving now, I can ensure I won’t let you down once again.

May your soul and spirit blessed be!!! ^.^
~Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu~

Love,
~CK~