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mY cHiLdHoOd bIcYcLe

My childhood bicycle.

Yes,...indeed a bicycle that is with me since childhood.

A bicycle I received as a reward from my straight As UPSR exam result back in 2001 when I was 12. One of my proud achievements I had in my life.

Now 24 years later, in 2025, this bicycle is still with me. Not only with me but it is in working condition with some repairs and maintenance here and there throughout the years.

And it is now with me in Singapore. Been using this bicycle for my Grab Delivery since 2022. A bicycle that had been my companion for 24 years, from KL to JB and to SG. My buddy bicycle had travelled a long journey just like I did throughout the years. 

I love you buddy. ❤️

mY bIrThDaY CeLeBrAtIoN ‘25

One of the belated facebook post

Throwback to last month,…

#birthdaycelebration

#throwback

AnGeMoN & AnGeWoMoN

Angemon - Angel of Hope

Angewomon - Angel of Light

 

~Even in the darkest moment, never lose Hope & Light~

StRiKe oF LoTTeRy

Wow, what a lucky strike!!!

Wee!!!

CK ^.^

Ikigai

💚 1. What You Love (Inner Drive)

From your patterns:

• Understanding systems (financial markets, operations, data flows)
• Learning and improving yourself (you invest a lot into growth)
• Stability + safety (important to you emotionally and practically)
• Helping others make better decisions (quiet but meaningful impact)

👉 You are not someone who enjoys chaos or pure sales pressure—you prefer structured environments with purpose.

🟡 2. What You Are Good At (Natural Strengths)

• Analytical thinking (data, patterns, problem-solving)
• Process understanding (operations, workflows)
• Persistence (you don’t give up easily—even after setbacks)
• Bridging technical + business (engineering → finance transition)

👉 This is a rare combo: technical foundation + business adaptability.

🟠 3. What You Can Be Paid For (Market Reality)

Based on Singapore market + your CV:

• Data Analyst (Banking / FinTech) ⭐
• Operations Analyst (Banking, Asset Management)
• Risk / Compliance Analyst (entry to mid-level)
• Business Analyst (data-focused roles)

👉 Your highest probability + stability path is:
Data + Banking Operations hybrid roles

💗 4. What the World Needs (External Demand)

• Data-driven decision making
• Financial transparency & risk control
• People who can translate data → action

👉 Especially in Singapore:

• Banks (OCBC, DBS, UOB)
• FinTech firms
• Investment platforms

🤎 Your True Ikigai (Intersection)

✨ “Using data to improve financial systems and help people make better, safer decisions.”

✨ “Data Analyst with strong operations & process background in financial environments”

Choose people who:

by Sasha Tozzi.

Photo Source: Power of Positivity

mY cHiLdHoOd nEgLeCtEd

Reflecting on my childhood years where how neglected I was by my surrounding.

Being a single family where my father passed away when I was twelve. I grew up into my teenage and adulthood without a father figure. At the same time, my mom who is a single mom had to raise two children where my elder brother is at his most rebellious and the society called back that 'most not useful person', so she focused most of her time, attention and resources to my elder brother to lift him up.

On the other hand, where me myself being seen as the obedient child who consider do fine academically is put aside without any form of support especially emotional support for growth. Sometimes, I even I had absorb the chaos and emotions from my mom as she was struggling to survive. She has no other channel but me. Not my elder brother but me. Worst still, I was taking up the role like secondary lead of the family to take care of the household matters as my mom worked to earn the income.

So after so many years even until adulthood now, the same of treatment and support I still received from my mom still the same although my elder brother had so called become successful. When I still struggle to build myself well unlike others who might already had well career and relationship, I still don't receive much support or help from my mom. I struggled so much with my career and relationship that only I realised my inner childhood is crying for help so loudly and it collapsed my entire soul, mind and body system to function well as an adult.

Slowly I realised I need to stop tolerating to such treatment. It's because I knew I should not play victim anymore. I realised I need to have refusal no to keep carrying all these adult problems that I did not create. For years and decades, I am the child in such a toxic family that is expected to absorb the chaos, manage emotions I did not caused and grew up magically fix it all. But yeah, I had already became the villain, ungrateful , difficult and the problem one in my family's eye.

I should stop chasing for validation I am never going to get any more and start giving it to myself. Thus, breaking the cycle in the family through estrangement boundarie.

It's time to really keep reminding myself that "I Deserve Better!!!".

#empowerment #toxicfamily #breakthecycle

mY bIrThDaY CeLeBrAtIoN ‘24

One of the facebook post

Thank you Ken Chew

Birthday Celebration

#birthdaycelebration

#orchard

#桃苑

You will be sorely missed, my friend

Goodbye my friend,...

You will be sorely missed, my friend

Chee Kien

爱情， 友情

pRioRiTiSe yOuRseLf FiRsT To pRoTeCt ThAt ChiLd

Yes, as the title said so, pRioRiTiSe yOuRseLf FiRsT

I was always harsh on myself growing up.

Trying this childhood picture method to help myself acknowledge my self-worth or to make decision in life.

This picture is my one of my favourite childhood pictures. 

A good one to reinforce myself with this thought.

"I was once good too. I deserved happiness too just like this child deserved happiness."

Make decision not for yourself but for this child of yourself.

Not to put safety/happiness/needs of other people's (especially random people) > child of yourself.

Imagine yourself as that child to defend yourself.

So protect that child.

CK ^.^

10 yEaRs oR MoRe,...

Yup, it has been 10 years since my last post here.

It is also marked I had been in Singapore more than 10 years.

To be exact, it had passed 10.5 years. 

With coming August 2024, it will be going to be 11 years.

Well, I am back here again. I guess this will be my place to express my thoughts and blog about my journey of my life be it for the past 10 years, present or <the future>.

Probably will start with some flashback from the day or year that I step into this Little Red Dot land or Lion City known as Singapore.

CK ^.^

Shyuan's B'dAy DinneR

Just another day of weekend celebrating Shyuan's bday @ Bibigo NEX instead of my mom's one since I am not in KL this time and year.

Anyway,...

~~~Happy Birthday Shyuan!!!~~~



CK

A LonG FrOzEn HeArt~~~

It's been a while since I last blogged. Never thought this blog is not longer highlighting my journey of life,  but a place to relieve my thoughts and be myself here.

This thoughts of relieve began 3 years back when I had my longest semester break during my university years. Back then after a bad encounter in my second year, I knew in order to achieve my goal and what I want, I gotta stay focus. To stay focus, I decided to turn myself into a new leave. A person I thought I am gonna be for the rest of the life to strike for success. A person who locked and frozen his heart from having any feeling of pain and sorrow as to move on in life.

Soon with blessing by my side, I slowly getting close with other courses friends whom fill my heart with warmness,  kindness and happiness. I was touched to seen with my true eyes and feel with my fragile heart. 2 years of happiness past with a blink of an eye.

I am now living and working in Singapore. Where closest friends are not by my side physically. I did get a lot of mental support from them trough messages, but sometimes it is the loneliness is undeniably to be filled. The feeling of lonely eventually triggered my fragile heart and unfrozen the long frozen heart. The pain and sorrow slowly emerges out. This pain and sorrow is affecting towards my performance and focus on my work. I feel bad I once again let myself down and not able to find the energy to fight back. Each day and week I did keep fighting with my best positive energy but that energy doesn't seem last long.

Coming weeks and month gonna be a busy period at work. I am really worry if I could overcome such challenge of work with such condition of heart. Many advised by pampering myself with good food and outing with friends, I would feel better. It might help fill that emptiness for temporary as for me to go further. But deep down in me know that this way doesn't work for long run.

It is like in a situation whether I lift myself up or let go to drown myself in the deep blue sea~~~....

I still wonder~~~

CK @,@

ThOuGhT oF ThE dAy

Been long since I express my thoughts. <Thought of the day>:

Never expect people will know what you are thinking and not to guess others people thinking. What others think does not matter, it is how you think yourself. If you want others to know your thinking, you need express it out.~~~

CK